DREAMS

Its weird how I sleep for 7 seconds and dream many things. Anyways, that's not the point. I have this dreams that everything is awesome. Expecially the Boyz with cool drips😅. Anyways I just some of them come true.
  But dreams are not just about sleeping and dreaming.its about what you want in your life.for instance I want to have a good life: open up a big law firm, get a pent house and many more. Well it needs hard work though and smart work to. Like I've been dreaming of getting myself a better life and I don't know how. Happy life, my own staff, a stress free life..that's exactly what I picture in the future. I'm actually written this because I have faith and hope I will get it. If only I had a good encouragement. But all I have is a bunch of people who expect alot from me and when everything fail I'm the one to blame. 
  If something happens in there life that is bad I'm blamed. They don't care about how I will fell. They just expect me to be perfect. But just like them km not perfect...no one is perfect. 
One thing I tell myself is that if they continue like this I'll be done for good.

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