PAIN

Ouch! Yeah that's pain. The feeling that comes when someone has hurt you. Some people cry when the feeling comes and some ignore it. Everyone has experienced it. 

Let me narrate my pain that I once had and it's  still there. Love. I once loved someone. I never saw anything bad in him. I vowed to put all of me in him. He was cute I can say. Everything in him was good for me. I could fail to listen to my loved ones because of him.I loved him. 
Then one day someone dropped a bomb shell on me. "Hey why are you texting my boyfriend"she asked. I was shocked. Who was this woman or girl,and what the fuck is she saying? I couldn't believe my ears when she said he was her boyfriend too. She must be mistaking. My boyfriend was very loyal....something I thought.... 
To cut a long story short I went ahead and asked him. Well he ended up choosing the other girl who they dated for 6 months and leaving me who we've dated for year. It's funny how I gave him all of me and he just left like that. It hurts still. 

Yeah that's pain. I cried all day and night but nothing changed. I still cry silently under my blanket to feel much better. But still nothing is changing. I wish someone could heal the pain that is killing me slowly. 
I still love him though. I know he does not love me anymore. I still don't understand what I did wrong for him to leave me just lime that. He told me he would explain but I still don't have any explanation from him. 

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